Phew! What a relief. Now what should I worry about?
Mike got his 6 mos PET scan results last Friday. He is all clear – NED (no evidence of disease) is what they call it. So we celebrated and words can’t explain the relief and joy.
My melanoma friends will agree – scan time is very traumatic. Mike had to practically push me up the stairs of the doctor’s office on Friday. Knowing that this appointment could change our lives so radically is part of what bothered me – I didn’t want to face that again. Would the upcoming months be filled with chemo and illness versus proceeding with life “as usual”? During the drive over, I lectured Mike on what we would do if we got bad news….we could fly here for this trial or there for another. People make fun of me for being so negative in this situation. I am not being negative – I am trying to feel in control of something that I can’t control. Being prepared for what happens next – good or bad – makes me feel better. So until July, when Mike has his next scans, we will work on enjoying our “normal life”, appreciating things that used to seem mundane, and I will try to stop worrying so much… but I won’t stop trying to be prepared.